Somewhere we went wrong
We were once so strong
Our love is like a song
You can't forget it
At all

And at last
All the pictures have been burned
And all the past
Is just a lesson that we've learned
I won't forget
I won't forget us

i tried to be a picture perfect girl , but eu were in ur own fantasy world , trying to control me , like some kind of barbie , but that just aint me ~

its so hard to keep up to my goal (of proving ppl wrong ) but ,
i will ! its hard , but tht just proves tht this is really2 important .
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im so tired of :
1) ppl lying to me
2) being the second best fren all the time

1 - i hate it when i trust someone and they lie to me . it motherfucking sucks .

2 - i've had so many best frens , but i've always felt like im their 2nd bestfren . like , they have one real one , and then theres me . the second , less-close best fren . haishh . well , they say they treat me equally but theres a part of me tht says , they're lying .

MOVING ON TO MORE LIGHTHEARTED THINGSYS `

woooo-hoooo . pon-ned skl tdy . hehehehex ! went to lpk , and went swimming in the afternoon . got sunburnt !! ughhh . now im the color of milo . oh sweet2 milo .

eu noe wat , sometimes eu do things and set goals not cos of ur personal believes .

just to prove ppl wrong , eu noe ?

and i noe , ur not supposed to care wat ppl think , blahblahblah , but .......

i dont fucking care .

this is important !

there is this one person who i want to prove wrong .

1) supersize mehh ;D

2) education-wise

3) attitude-wise

4) social-life-wise

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hmphh ..

puki sakk !!

stress stress stress ~

so many things to get angry over , so many things to cry about .

but im not gonna let these emotions take over me and just cry , cos im alot stronger than that ..

and the feeling that eu get , like all the decisions eu've ever made were wrong ..

haishh .

all i can do right now is just chill and wait for this phase to be over ..

and mid year exams have started ! english & mt paper is over . english , im kinda confident .

but for mt ? err ,lets just say ill be happy if i got C5 ? yea , i noe , omfg .


ps : i hateee ignorant people and i really2 cant stand them , so if eu're one of them , dont even dream of talking to me ~ ( people who talk like they noe everything when they dont even have a clue . ) !

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its been so long since i blogged ! god .. lots of stuff has happened .. and well , wat can i say , life's a bitch .. so let me lament ;)

today , my contact lenses tore , so i went and bought new contacts . anddd , i bought this compact powder (i havent used it yet ) and it has gone missing . so i had to go buy another one , cos mines abt to finish ( well not really , i throw them away before i see a huge hole in the middle cos , it doesnt look .. nice ? looks pathetic-ish ) . and then i bought a pack of ciggies and woo-hoo , there goes my 60 bucks .. byee2 money , ill miss eu .

DAMN ! and i was supposed to buy this contour palette , i was supposed to buy it and get it shipped here , ( come to think of it , i should just go but a bunch of contour colors frm mac . ishhq ! too late . ) but then i had to go buy all these things and had to temporarily put my wishlist on a hold ..

well , thats all i have to say actually ..

if eu're wondering , yeah , i live for makeup , its the best thing that can happen to a girl ;D

im sick =( i hateeeeeeeeeeeee being sick .. having sore throat now .. arghhqq ! so annoyed ..
andd , im so sick of being judged . fuck . i hate it when this happens .. haishh .. fuck la , i wanna just disappear ..

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i noe , i noe , its been a while since i've blogged . i noe , eu miss being a busybody and noeing stuff abt me , hehx ! ;D

so .. i feel tht i should just clear smth up right now , to all those who read my blog , ( there are very few , cos i havent been advertising it like most others do .

READ : yes , i noe i have been open abt having an eating disorder and have blogged abt it here , but , i would not like ppl to come and ask me anything abt it .. so eu may think :' then why did eu even blog abt it in the first place ? ' well . its my blog , and its only mine for a reason . i can write abt watever i want . i dont really mind blogging abt my ED cos not many ppl noe abt this blog .. but , to whoever reading this , i would appreciate it if eu dont come up to me and ask me questions regarding this topic . ur understanding is much appreciated ;)

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okieee , lemme start lamenting .

ohmyfuckin'gawd .

so , today i came to maths class , like , 2 minutes late , (cos someone borrowed my lighter) , and sat down . then the teacher yelled at me . he was angry tht i handed up a blank worksheet (did i mention it was a graded test ?) graded test. tests are graded . no i mean the marks will be included in the exam , gahh , nvm . so yea .. then he went on , to say tht : if i wanted to work as a model , i have to study too , most ppl in tht industry are bimbos , i can only work as a model till 25 (not really tht true) , i can only get signed on at 18 ( NOT TRUE ) and tht i can be vain at a later age ( wtf does tht have to do wif anything ?! and im not vain ! wait , fine , i may be vain , but in skl , i dun really care abt how i look. ) and he was yellingggg3 and the whole class went quiet . and at the end of his 'speech' i turned to my left and told my classmate ' i didnt deserve tht' and a few ppl giggled . hehx .

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so , i wanna take private o's . but , turns out i have to go transfer to private skl THIS YEAR . i cant do it next yr . fantastic . i dunno wat to do . i need to go talk to my skl counsellor , im too confused abt this right now ..

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so , omg out of nowhere , lets call this person , 'X' . ( ex bf drama -.- ) so , X called me . while i was having breakfast . 6.05 am , and asks me to pon skl and meet . and i was like , 'no .. why would i wanna meet eu anyway .. we dont actually noe each other *we do , but like, malas nak explain arhqq! * . and blah2 , then he says he awol , and hes gonna 'surrender' (surrender sounds too serious for such a thing , lol .) in the afternoon .. gonna go db .. then im like *kinda sad for him , i've got to admit* but i didnt want him to see righ thru me , so yea .. blah2 .. ohgodd .. then he was like 'sad' tht i didnt wanna meet . so then he was like , so eu mean eu dont wanna tok to me or meet me anymore ? and i was like : err .. mm .. WAT ELSE WAS I SUPPOSED TO SAY !

okiee .
thats it .
(ooh , happy april fools , just thought i shld wish everyone . then again , i dunno if its smth eu wish ppl , gahh . wateverr xD )
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